Pregnancy Notes 

I thought I should blog a little more before my hands get full with soiled diapers, milk bottles and a myriad of baby paraphernalia. 🙂

Some random facts about our first pregnancy

1. It was a surprise. However unprepared we felt, we saw God’s hand in baby D’s life from the time he was conceived. In the fragile first few weeks of his implantation in my uterus, God prevented Nick and I from travelling to Tamong (a mountainous village with treacherous road conditions) through a terrible cold I developed which lasted a week. We would have gone, if not for the dreadful cough and fever that kept me awake for many nights, as I was unaware of my pregnancy at that time. After all, I wasn’t due for Aunt Flo’s visit till the next week. Through this incident, we look back and realise that baby D’s life has truly been covered with the fingerprints of his heavenly Father since the very beginning.

God also revealed to us baby D’s gender way before it was revealed in an ultrasound. At week 5, Nick and I already had a word given to us from the Bible (individually, at different times and through different passages) that we would have a son. (The gender of a baby is usually only known at week 16).

This brought us comfort and joy; knowing that despite our feelings of unpreparedness and inadequacy, God has already ordained all the days of our son.

The day we found out that we were expecting, a butterfly emerged from the cocoon we had earlier kept to observe.

2. I gave my poor Hubby and loved ones a headache during the first 5-6 months of pregnancy with my incredibly restricted diet. I felt too sick to stomach any Chinese food, meat especially poultry, and often craved for Japanese food and McDonald’s. (which obviously, is not available where we were in Kalimantan). 😄

Thankfully for my poor husband, I managed to win in two sushi competitions, one which won me a two hundred ringgit voucher at Sushi Tei, and another free thirty plates of sushi at Sushi King. We believe God had mercy on the both of us. 😂 I got my sushi cravings fixed, and our household budget was preserved. 😂

Now, I’m happily making up for lost time and enjoying my ayam goreng, chicken rice, Nando’s and KFC. Tee hee hee.

Our winning entry for Sushi Tei, accompanied by a poem I wrote for it’s caption.

3. I really love the feeling of baby D’s movements in my tummy. It makes up for all the physical discomfort I feel at each stage of the pregnancy, be it nausea and Dizziness, back pains, heart burn or indigestion. It feels so good to know that this precious little one is growing, woven by the skillful hands of His Father in heaven.

Spot the little bird saying hello to baby D 🙂

4. Despite all the challenges of pregnancy, my friends who are mothers already say that pregnancy is a breeze compared to actual motherhood! I believe them. 🙂 Nick and I feel so in need of God’s grace and wisdom as we charter into this unknown territory of parenthood.

Nick has been an amazing husband and support during this period, I could not ask for more. So glad that he’s with me in this together!

5. We are also treasuring our last few moments together alone as a couple (every day feels like honeymoon for me still, even after 2+ years of marriage). Hehe.

6. Lastly, I personally feel so blessed and grateful to God for His providence to us and baby D through the love of the people around us. Baby stuff can be so pricey and confusing at times for newbie parents like us, but everyone has been so kind to rally around us with their support, availability and all the wonderful hand me downs and gifts we have received. Most of our baby stuff are pre-loved items from relatives and friends who have generously given/loaned us stuff without hesitation. Personally, we would rather use hand-me-downs for these reasons – we save a lot, we don’t have to go back and forth deciding on the brands, prices and benefits and disadvantages of each product that we are considering to purchase (my husband is extremely thrifty and OCD, haha) and each product has been tried and tested from its previous owner. Anddddd, we just feel really blessed and loved as we sorted through the different items we received from family and friends.

Through this pregnancy, I’ve also come to experience for myself God’s providence for His children. Even though we have chosen in some ways to give up many things in following Him, He has proven Himself faithful to provide & we have never lacked anything.

Can’t wait to share all these stories with you, baby D. See you soon! 😚

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Little Moments 

The character and quality of our life is forged in “little moments”. {Paul David Tripp} 
It is a profound thought because it is in the little moments that our marriage is strengthened or weakened, either by our concern and care for one another or our indifference to the things that are important to our spouse but seemingly insignificant and unimportant to us. 
I’m thankful for a man who shows his love in a thousand ways to me in small but faithful acts each day. 
Love and appreciate you, darling.

Blessed Birthday, Darling

I thank the Lord for you each day.

I thank Him for His grace upon you that has seen you through each year of your life, all these years.

He has held you, loved you, watched over you with His loving eye, and disciplined you as how a true loving Father does for the child He loves.

I am so thankful to be a witness of God’s work in your life and how He is using you to be a blessing to the nations. May many come to experience Christ through you.

As your blessed and beloved wife, I have come to know and learn about unconditional love in a far deeper way. Thank you for loving me when the days are long and tough, for being there even when you do not have all the answers, and for being a constant to me amidst the ups and downs we go through together.

Thank you for your steadying hand that finds me each time we pray, walk or wait.

Thank you for your eyes that speak so much compassion for others. Thank you for teaching me to see things that others usually don’t.

Thank you for being strong, and yet vulnerable enough to reveal your weakness. Thank you for trusting me as your companion and allowing this strange creature called ‘woman’ to turn your life upside down and inside out. 🙂

Thank you for being willing to go through this beautiful messy thing called love, so that through you, I would be able to understand more about God’s love.

I’m so honored to be your wifey.

I hope you have a blessed day, and even more blessed year, because you truly deserve the best.

Love you always,
Wifey

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Blessed Birthday, My Love 

How blessed I am to be celebrating this birthday with you together, for the first time, and as your wife. 

I thank God every day for you. 

B, remember how I used to fear marriage because of the common perceptions about marriage. Many would speak about its challenges but rarely its blessings, and often time making marriage sound like a burden, a chore, a noose around the neck, maybe. (Haha) It was not because I didn’t appreciate the hard facts about marriage (or life) but the way some would speak of it in such a bitter and cynical manner made me fear if those things would happen to me.

You said this to me –

“I’m glad I have you. You bring out the best in me. And you make me want to be a biblical husband to you. I never imagined I could be so ‘good’ and that it would be so easy and natural. 

That’s why I know when we finally get together it will just be so beautiful. It will give me all the chances to show you that I’m your man. Then I can finally prove to you that it’s not just words. That I truly love you. And that you are truly beautiful in my eyes. And that I truly think the world of you. 

… And I would lay down my life for you. It will be much deeper and meaningful. I promise. The world says it will deteriorate. Don’t believe them. Believe His word. It will be all the more beautiful and alive and real. I will love you with all my heart. As myself, and more than myself. Rachel, be my wife. I love you. <3″ 

-March 25th 2014, 8:03am



When you asked for my hand in marriage, you told me that this would be the start of many new beginnings, but there would also be many deaths. 



When we wrote our vows, we had that at the back of our minds. 

You promised that as a couple and family that we would love others as we would ourselves, and more than that, as God has loved us. We would lay down our lives for others, that they may come to be called God’s friends. (Mark 12:30-31; John 13:34-35; John 15:9-17) 



You promised that we would seek God’s Kingdom first and His righteousness, holding nothing back for ourselves and of ourselves for His name’s sake and for the gospel’s, resting in His salvation, His love and His promised provision. (Matt 6:33, Luke 14:26-33, Mark 10:29-30; Rom 8:31-39)

You vowed that we would live as strangers and pilgrims on this earth, setting our minds and our hearts on the heavenly Homeland. Wherever He sets us to dwell, we will dwell. His people will be our people, and He shall be our God. We will die in the place and manner in which He appoints us to die. (Heb 11:13-16, Matt 6:21, Ruth 1:16-17)  



You vowed that we would be obedient to Christ’s conmand to go and make disciples of all the nations, inviting others to the Wedding Feast of the Lamb, that the Lord’s name be great among the nations. (Matt 28:18-20; Matt 22:1-14, Rev 19:6-9; Mal 1:11)

I promised that I would help and support you, and make your work and vision my own. I vowed to follow you to the ends of the earth, wherever our Beloved King would send us. I promised to not shirk from discomfort, uncertainty, opposition or hardship but welcome them, looking to Christ, longing to share in His sufferings and lose my life for His sake. (Matt 28:18-20, 1 Peter 4:13, Matthew 10:39) I promised that I would no longer live for myself, my own dreams, plans or desires but I would learn, by His grace, to lay down my life for you and the people He has called us to serve. 

We did not enter marriage with rose-tinted glasses. We were prepared to lose our possessions, any form of security, our health, our comfort, our lives and even each other. 

But He has been good to us. 

We see His faithfulness in the daily provisions we receive and the roof we have over our heads. 

We find joy, so much joy in doing life together – in the mundane and routine, and serving together as a couple on the fields. 

God has been so good to us and He has been so good to me, my love. 

Thank you for the man that you are to me. A man that loves God above all else is worth more than all the gems of the world. You have taught me so much. I have learned so much just by being your blessed wife. Your humility and patience is a gentle rebuke to me when I need it, and far more effective a response than harshness or impatience. 

Your love for the people here is not a full and perfect representation of Christ’s love for us, but your sacrifices, your willingness to be unknown and unappreciated speaks a lot about who you are in christ. 



Thank you for being my role model, my inspiration. 

I do not look to you as the perfect man who will never fail nor disappoint because that would be an impossible demand. 

But I know I could not have asked for more.

Thank you for being my husband.

Blessed 31st birthday, 

With all my love, 

Your most blessed and happy wife. 



Photo by Mun Keat Photography.



Most Blessed 

I count myself a most blessed wife indeed. 



Hubs made mystery dinner for our 2nd wedding “month-sary”. After allowing me to prepare the salad & mocktail in the kitchen, he shooed me off to the room, forbade me from coming into the kitchen and got to work with his imagination, a few ingredients & lots of love. 

Imagine stepping out of the room to a candle-lit table, with pizza fresh from the oven! (poor husband had to deal with working in a dark house as we had to keep all other electrical appliances off to keep our mini oven going without the electricity tripping!) 

On sliced bread he used our leftover frozen bolognese sauce and topped it with sliced cheese (from Malaysia), and another variety included garlic butter with shredded smoked pork (a gift from the village he ministered to over Easter weekend). 

It was delicious; my stomach was filled and my heart full. 

Babe, you are the man beyond what I could have ever dreamed of. I thank God everyday for you. 

I love you! 

We Need Christ

Please do not put Nick and I on a pedestal.

(This is far from any attempt to be humble or appear humble. Haha!)

We have fallen flat on our faces sufficient times to know that we are only where we are by His grace. His grace is grace simply because it is prepared to be taken for granted, trampled over and taken lightly.

And these things, we have committed. Over and over again.

We will fail the people we serve.

We will disappoint the ones we love and the ones who love us deeply.

We are not infallible.

We can only entrust ourselves in the hands of our Lord Jesus Christ, who holds us in the palms of his nail-scarred hands.

We can only trust in our Everlasting God who picks us up when we fall, mends our wounds, cleans away the dirt & grime from us & makes us anew again.

Look not to us.

Look to Him.