Your People Shall be My People… 

Ku bawa hidupku s’karang

Ke tempat kudusMu Tuhan

di mezbahMu ku serahkan

seluruh hidupku

Penuhi hatiku s’karang

Dengan urapan yang baru

Agar aku lebih lagi

Mendengar suaraMu

Jadikan aku Tuhan

Rumah doaMu

Agar semua suku bangsa

Datang menyembahMu.


The Summons

Will you come and follow Me
if I but call your name?
Will you go where you don’t know
and never be the same?
Will you let My love be shown?
Will you let My name be known?
Will you let My life be grown
in you and you in Me?

Will you leave yourself behind
if I but call your name?
Will you care for cruel and kind
and never be the same?
Will you risk the hostile stare?
Should your life attract or scare?
Will you let Me answer pray’r
in you and you in Me?
Will you let the blinded see
if I but call your name?
Will you set the pris’ners free
and never be the same?
Will you kiss the leper clean,
and do such as this unseen,
and admit to what I mean
in you and you in Me?

Will you love the ‘you’ you hide
if I but call your name?
Will you quell the fear inside
and never be the same?
Will you use the faith you’ve found
to reshape the world around
through My sight and touch and sound
in you and you in Me?

Lord, Your summons echoes true
when You but call my name
Let me turn and follow You
and never be the same
In Your company i’ll go
Where Your love and footsteps show
Thus i’ll move and live and grow
in You and You in me..

John L. Bell

To the Beautiful Women in My Life

“God has many He wants to embrace and love through us, so amidst our own pain and sadness we have to wipe away our tears and give out of our own broken-heartedness. I’ve realized that running on empty sometimes is the best way to go. Empty of ourselves and filled of Him, we may surprise ourselves at the outcome of our abundance from which we give out of.”

This is an excerpt of what mummy wrote me a few months into my life as a missionary and wife last year.

Her words carry weight because she has lived a life of incredible courage, sacrifice and love.

I am so grateful for both my mums, who have undoubtedly sacrificed so much for us and our families. They are people whose prayers I covet and know I can depend on. I can’t remember the many times I’ve sent SOS prayer requests to them. They have always, always, been there for me.

I miss you both so much this mothers’ day.
Love you both.

Keep My Head Above the Waters…

But now, thus says the Lord , who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.

When you pass through the waters, I will  be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

Isaiah 43:1-2 NKJV

And this I pray, let not the waters overwhelm me…

Lord, Come…

One of the things I miss most about leaving home, is having a mum and dad.

Being one who has virtually never left home, I now sometimes feel almost ‘orphaned’, having to bravely face the crowd of spectators on my own, square my shoulders bravely when the tears treaten to spill and hold myself together.

I wish I could go back to a hidden life, but I know He demands more of me. This illness, my foolishness, my struggles are all part of His platform for me.

I don’t want to make Christ ashamed of me. Standing at the fore front provides more potential for witness but also the dangers of stumbling another.

Oh, how I wish and pray for a mentor to whom I would able to share freely, unedited without fear of judgment. To receive the counsel and reprove that I need.

But I miss feeling the arms of Papa most…
Somehow amidst all the activity and adjusting, I have lost sight of what it means to pause and rest…

And today You brought John 14:18 to mind. Though all my being cries out for a mum and dad, for a mentor, You have promised You would not leave me as an orphan, You would come to me.

And this is my prayer tonight.

Lord, come. It’s been too long…

Saying Yes to You 

“Courage is not about knowing the path. It is about taking the first step. It is about Peter getting out of the boat, stepping out onto the water with complete faith that Jesus will not let him drown. 

I do not know my five-year plan; even tomorrow will probably not go as I have planned. I am thrilled and I am terrified, in a good way. Some call it courage; some call it foolish; I call it faith. I choose to get out of the boat. Sometimes I walk straight into His arms. More often, I get scared and look down and stumble. Sometimes I almost completely drown. And through it all, He never lets go of my hand. 

Lord, may we choose you every moment of every day. We want to be fully committed to You. We want every day to become a day we say “yes” to You. We repent for lukewarm-ness, from mediocrity, from normalcy. We want to shine so brightly for You that others can’t help but see and feel your love. Let us look at every encounter as an opportunity to show Your love. 

Lord, on the days where helping just one more person seems like too much, help me to choose You. 

On the days when satan whispers “You can’t save everyone, why are you trying?” Let me choose You. 

When harsh words are easier to find than kind ones, let me choose You. 

Father, like Paul, I know what I want to do, what I should do, and yet I find myself failing and discouraged. Thank You for your grace. Thank You that You who sit so high would look low upon people like me and use us as a vessel for you. How blessed we are to even be called servants, to be able to share in Your kingdom and share Your love with others. 

Thank You for the cross, where You have given us peace and holiness. 

Father, we long to say Yes to You.” 

Katie Davis 

When I Am Afraid (and Alone)

Whenever I am afraid,
I will trust in You.

You number my wanderings;
Put my tears into Your bottle;
Are they not in Your book?

In God I have put my trust;
I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?

Vows made to You are binding upon me, O God;
I will render praises to You,

For You have delivered my soul from death.
Have You not kept my feet from falling,
That I may walk before God
In the light of the living?

(Selected verses from psalm 56, NKJV)